Primitively speaking, you are a sapient being who divinely received life from God. This means that you received sapience from God in order to recognize and comprehend your incapaciousness.
No one possesses any omnisciene. It is the very matter of the truth no one can change. It is usually true that authentic sapient beings don't feel any consternation about this matter. Because they have authentic sapience intellectually polished.
A being who intentionally hedges about the matter of the truth guided and given by his teacher, Toshiyuki Namai at the risk of 1) "his life" and 2) "his after-life" can not be spiritually pre-elevated. Such a being who ignorantly wishes to be spiritually pre-elevated shall be a being who doesn't comprehend his incapaciousness and is "not" all set to take action in accordance with his teacher.
Time creeps on silently. Such a being regrets that he has been meaninglessly wasting time divinely given by God after aging.
Intrinsically, a being who doesn't know how to use sapience given is all the time wastes time as a holy gift given by God. Unfortunately, there is no effective medicine for such a being.