Are your meaningfully injecting various intellectual pieces divinely given from your teacher, Toshiyuki Namai into your blood or simply regurgitating those again and again?
Fundamentally speaking, regurgitation in your learning process is not a fruitful way for you to be intellectually upgraded by him at all.
Experiencing regurgitating what you receive so many times ironically proves how you don't get anything important from him very much.
Now, I need to repeatedly tell you that to place yourself and live here in the sphere of my spirituality is the only way for you to meaningfully bite and chew those intellectual pieces divinely given from me as the very matter of transubstantiation.
Learning through experiencing meaningless regurgitation doesn't give you any chance for you to experience what is called "rational digestion" at all. It means that regurgitation you unconsciously experience is "awfully irrational."
Intrinsically, there are three fundamental processes for you to be intellectually upgraded by me, "receiving" first, "injecting" second and "digesting" third.