I'd like you all to understand that you have the totally different quality of life with or without ordering your daily life according to rigid spirit.
It is absolutely indispensable for you to order yourself according to rigid spirit and rules in your 24 hours every day. To have a day not to do it produces only negative element which poisons the core of your individuality. There is nothing good in experiencing it for you.
How you spend your time every day critically affects everything you have in your individuality. Hence, I'd like you to order your life according to rigid spirit and rules decided at any cost day after day.
Rigid spirit is "the very matter of discipline" you inevitably need for your minute development. Nobody eviscerates you spiritually. What you just need is to continue ordering yourself in accordance with spiritual rigidity.
It is a privilege of yours to rigidly order yourself according to the teachings given by your teacher, Toshiyuki Namai as a disciple who lives in his spiritual sphere.